Im going to try this again.

Hello Everyone,

So im sure you can tell its been a minute since I have written well anything. I swear whenever I get some free time I always think "hey im going to work on my blog," but then reality likes to smack me in the face & say - no your not stupid -now clean up that poop,puke or whatever mess my son, furbabies or the big baby left for me. Oh in case you haven't been following me ( yeah right I know) the "big baby" is one of the many names I refer to my hubby as. It is one of the nicer one. We have been together before Jesus was a baby & have been through just as much so over the years he has earned a few names, (I m sure he will say the same about me though).

 
  I really do plan on posting a lot more now. what makes me think I will actually do it? There are 14 days left of school, and this is " outlet".
Now most "mom bloggers" will say something like " I love sharing all the wonderful memories my family & I create or "my silly adventures of being a mom" & Hey that might be the the truth & thats just freakin great but, thats very far from my life.
No This is not the blog where your going to see pictures from our latest trip to an island or me flipping out because my son ate a hot dog that wasnt organic. My last "vacation" was a hot bubble bath & if my son will sit down long enough to eat a whole hot dog -Im thrilled!
 
 I have much bigger issues to worry about. I will get into this more in another post but the short version is...
Im 38. had to stop working at 26 after working for about 14 years,due to R.A. & Crohns. After 3 miscarriages I was blessed with a very special little guy 8 years ago. He is Autistic ( high functioning though) which I can handle, its the ADHD & SEVERE Insomnia that I sometimes think were due to me unknowingly cutting off a voodoo priest in traffic or something. Really, at 8 months old I had to start melatonin after he was up for 20 hrs straight. He would sleep for like an Hours maybe & be up for 8 or 9 when he was an infant. After years of it, I have gotten use to it except now its not 20 hours its 2-3 days if not for the good folks at pfeiser. We are still figuring out a lot, as we know he has Developmental disabilities but, we dont yet know to what extent or why.

  I also have that Big baby I mention early,I got married at 24 after being together for 4 years. We are complete opposites. he comes from a big,old school family, he was the BABY of 8 kids & could do no wrong. I on the other hand am the oldest of 3, it was my little sister & I on our own. I worked full time since 12. His family taught me what family was really like unfortunately Both his mom then, his dad past away before our son was born. Like most mamas boys, my hubby can still act like a spoiled brat. Which If you do follow me you will get to read all about Im sure.
About 3 years ago, we decided that the only way JJ would get the resources he needs to give him the best chance at a successful life would be to move to a better school district. We were living in Baltimore city, well right on the county line,. He was 5. non verbal,still in pull ups & he was given limits I would not accept.
 3 years later he is saying 3-4 words together,writes & just access to so many other things he wont otherwise.
I think thats about it, oh yeah, I have 11 shell, quill or furbabies. Yes I animals each one of them even the fish are rescues. I have a terrible time taking care of them but, I wouldnt chance it.

 You will read all about them on here, I also love Glam eveything - didnt figure me as a "Glam" type of girl. Well Im not the typical I will say that but, I have always loved doing make up, hair, seeing new fashion stuff all of it. I use to be able to drop a few hundred on a new coach purse or eyeshadow pallete. I worked my butt off so I wanted to look good while doing it.,At 19 I made almost 50,000 a year. I still have my gucci taste just on a walmart budget now. I love trying out new stuff & being able to tell people like me if they should or shouldnt spend their money on it. I also garden & love doing DIY stuff.
Im  cant promise I will get to everything immedialy but If you do follow me ican promise you , your going to have a new apprecation for your life & you will laugh. I tend to be too honest and have a pretty rough sense of humor. I always answer questions & respect any feedback good or bad as long as I get it(lol).
   
Well, thats it for now if your still hear ...
 Thank you so much,apprecite all my readers!!
🐞Tina🐞

Welcome to DIXIE'S DIARY

     HI EVERYONE
   I started actually started Dixie's Diary about 5-6 years ago now and even know my Dixie girl is no longer with me , I know it would not be right if I did not continue with this from where her and I left off.

   Although I never completely stopped writing reviews, the amount varied a lot over the past 6 years and my blog got completely put on the back burner. At one point I was even in the top 10,000 on Amazon but, even that eventually was just not an option

  My little man who is 8 now has really come so far, but that is because of all the work the schools, specialists, and I have done with him. We even moved to a better school district so he could have all the resources he needs it costs literally twice as much just to live in about 15 miles away but a different zip code means a different life, yes this is one of the most messed up things I can think of but, instead of getting angry I honestly count my blessing I am able to give my son what so many moms are not able to.
    In his old school I was told he wouldn't ever be in a regular classroom, it would be years till he could right his name etc.. That was a little over 2 years, not only  is he in a  that "main stream" kindergarten classroom ( w/an aide) he is writing words. He is saying 3-4 words together and uses an asst. technology device to talk to his friends. Yes he has friends and is thriving now.

  Now that he is doing so well I have been slowly getting back into what I love. I think its time I start Dixie's Diary back and see how far it can go. I would love suggestions, advice, basically any contact that is with grown ups would be wonderful.
  

While I might do it with a unique sense of humor I will be sharing my day to day struggles raising a "special needs" child while having health issues of my own, as well as many other issues that some moms can relate to and other issues ALL moms can. I hope you will join me as I try this again, at the very lease you will get a good laugh, 

I also use to have a great job, a decent body, & could shower daily. Well if I could still say any of that I might not have to have a blog, most " mom bloggers" won't admit it but, we blog because we have to " vent" somehow. We need some kind of contact with people not Mickey mouse & paw patrol. Of course I originally started blogging as a way to reach out & help other women like myself. I had a very hard time when I had to stop working, I worked my butt off since I was like 13, I never needed  ( or wanted ) to depend on anyone else.After being on my own basically my whole life I now had to depend on my hubby. While I was waiting for my SSI case to be decided I learned I was 1 of the lucky ones, most women (& men) who can't work don't have someone AKA additional income. It usually takes a few years to receive Disability if at all. This blog was originally a way for me to share resources & reach out to others so didn't feel as useless & depressed as I did. 

Overtime it has evolved into a little bit if everything, reviews of beauty & other products, sharing resources & other useful stuff, but mainly it the everyday life being of a stuck ,I mean stay at home mom who is exhausted, a wife who couldn't get attention from her husband if she stood naked in front of the TV. I should give him a little credit eventually he would go to change the channel & realize I was the blocking the remote. The life of someone who use to be able to drop $2-$300 on make up without thinking about it but now, wishes the dollar store had sales & has made an art out if bargain shopping. 

I think that about sums it up ,oh yeah, the babies. I totally forgot to tell you about one if the important parts of my life. My other kids. I told you about my Dixie May girl however I did not tell you about the rest of them .. I love animals,I 100%believe that they deserve to be treated just as well as we treat children especially in the legal system. I cannot stand to see an animal suffer & have tried very hard to help as many as possible. This has led to what I call my " flock" . There are 11 of them total at the moment. Two of them sleep with my son & I Trixie the pup & Odie- bun the bunnydog. I know this is long enough already so I will get more into all of them in another post, all my babies are rescues though & each one has a story & is special!

Now that is it really this time. I hope you were able to get an idea of everything & will follow along. 

                                                     

                                            🐞TINA🐞
                                   

Here are a few pictures of my family

 

The one & only my

DIXIE MAY SUNSHINE

ME

                  

                         ODIE BUN W/ HIS STUFFY

MY BOYS JJ & ODIE- BUN 

DIXIE MAY & JADA NOEL

PRICKLES  

APOLLO